One of those days, wondering if you are a bad Mom!! Sad

Last night when I was going to sleep all I could think of was how hard I was on my Kids today, and it Broke my heart. It was one of those moments when you honestly think that you are a BAD Mom. I felt so devastated to think that I was not as Kind, Patient, and Nurturing as I should have been. While I was saying my prayers I just asked for advice on what I could do better, and that I would be blessed with more Patience tomorrow. Is it just Women that feel this way, and why do we feel this when all we are trying to do is teach them to be respectful and obedient. Out of all my sister's it seems that I am the most strict, sometimes I like it and other times I hate it! Last night I thought "Why do I want my children Perfect?" Is it fair to them? Why do I care what people think when my Kids are screaming and having tantrums? I know I am not the only mother who has asked these questions to themselves, but what are the right answers! I don't know but I do know the doubts of Motherhood are just starting and will continue for the rest of my life, and this is because I love my children more than anything. I want the best for them and I hope that they will always know that even when there are hard days and discipline given. To every MOTHER out their that feels discouragement at times just remember you are wonderful and that discipline mixed with love creates happy, strong children. Being a mother at times is challenging but there is nothing better than the love they give. So to my sadness yesterday I say "Go Away" because Today I had a wonderful day with my children! Play dough (Twice), reading, laughing, tackling on the floor, laying on Savy's Blanket while she kept Kissing my face, and not once having to say No! It was a perfect day and I am so lucky to Be a Mother because I get a lifetime to learn and grow with my Dearest Sweethearts!

Sashy and Jonny I am sorry for being mean to you too, I love you and want the best for you too!(Just like my own children)

This explains what McKay Loves!!!

So just imagine, I will replay the whole scene! Scott was watching ESPN( yes we are now cablers,I gave in), I was making Savannah's cake pops and of course Savy was asleep because it was a least 10:00. McKay was with me in the Kitchen until I realized I hadn't seen him for about 15 min. I wasn't worried because Mckay would never leave our house with out being by our sides. I heard the dogs playing and chasing in the back yard and thought it was a weird hour for them to be playing since they love going to bed around 8:00. So I looked out the window and to my surprise I saw that our Sweet Fun little boy had crawled through the doggie door and was playing baseball with the Dogs! He would grab an apple off our tree and was pretending to be there Pitcher(he was telling our two Labs that they were the Dodgers), he would take his stance and lift his knee and throw the apples to the dogs!!! To top it all off he was outside with only his cute choo choo undies covering his Bum Bum, he didn't even seem to mind that it was freezing outside! I called for Scott to look at our Silly obsessed baseball Boy and we both knew we had to catch him on film. We will always love that camera moment we captured tonight, it shows Who McKay Is and What he truly Loves!!!!

Meet my Sweet Babies!!

A little introduction to my Sweet McKay He has been our world for the past Three Years, he loves everything that has to do with sports, sports and more sports! McKay loves building Lego cars, playing with his Transformers,riding his new Birthday bike,playing with our doggies(Yes Two, that will be it's own funny Blog), and playing with his Cousins/friends. He is one Fun Kid and says some of the funniest things ever, Aunt Hilary loves this one-"No Talk,Stop Talking"! He knows what he wants and will tell you, sometimes it's polite and the other times it's definitely not! He thinks that his BABY sister came out of his tummy(he told the missionaries that last night at dinner), and loves her so tenderly. He kisses her soft cheeks and gives her his toys and makes sure that she doesn't eat his legos! He is always watching out for her, and she is lucky to have him. Most day's he is wonderful and perfect but then there are bad day's where the winniness doesn't stop, his food doesn't get eaten, hates sharing with anyone, and needs to just go back to his cute bed! I will keep all of you updated with funny things he says and does so that you will get to enjoy him as much as we do!!!

Meet my "Bloom Bloom" Savannah Bloom

She is our precious little angel, I still think of her as 6 months but really my baby is turning One!!! It makes me so sad that time has gone bye so quickly but I will try to recap a years life with Savannah Bloom- As the doctor put my sweet baby on my chest I looked at her and one thought came to mind "That she would always be my truest Best Friend"! This year has proven that, while dealing with 8 ear infections within 10 months, RSV twice, I learned that even when I felt too tired to help her I still wanted to take away her pain instead of my own.( motherhood) After being sick for most of ten months the doctor insisted on Tubes, how her life has changed!!! She is the happiest, healthiest, never cries, never pulls on her ears Kind of Baby. She loves playing with McKay and with his toys(he actually lets her play with them), she love his cars and his leapster the most. Her personality is unique she knows what she likes and knows when she wants them but even with this characteristic the one word that describes her is "ENDEARING". She loves to show affection, she's tender, calm, playful,determined and Sweet as can be to everyone! She is busy and keeps us moving but her favorite thing to do is nestle her body against ours, what a Joy she has been!

Scott wanted me to post a picture and this is what he choose!Hawaii there for the bathingsuit

Our amazing Trip to Maui our new favorite Island!!!

I love my friends blogs so here it goes!!!

I have been thinking about starting a blog since the beginning of the year but haven't had the time, or is it really that I haven't Made the time to start it. Probably I just haven't made the effort but I have loved following my friends blogs so Here I go!!! I don't claim to be the best creative writer(actually I am a horrible writer and I am horrible at grammar too!) so please don't fault me for making mistakes. I can't be perfect at everything, right!Ha Ha My reason for starting this blog is for many reasons, I want to communicate with family and friends and I also want to be able to write what I feel is important and not important
(like religion&shopping). I want this to be a blog where people will come to learn more about my life and the things that fill it. My hope is that this will challenge me to find unknown interests that will make my life Richer! So enjoy learning about Scott,Trisha,McKay and Savannah Linford.....