Last night when I was going to sleep all I could think of was how hard I was on my Kids today, and it Broke my heart. It was one of those moments when you honestly think that you are a BAD Mom. I felt so devastated to think that I was not as Kind, Patient, and Nurturing as I should have been. While I was saying my prayers I just asked for advice on what I could do better, and that I would be blessed with more Patience tomorrow. Is it just Women that feel this way, and why do we feel this when all we are trying to do is teach them to be respectful and obedient. Out of all my sister's it seems that I am the most strict, sometimes I like it and other times I hate it! Last night I thought "Why do I want my children Perfect?" Is it fair to them? Why do I care what people think when my Kids are screaming and having tantrums? I know I am not the only mother who has asked these questions to themselves, but what are the right answers! I don't know but I do know the doubts of Motherhood are just starting and will continue for the rest of my life, and this is because I love my children more than anything. I want the best for them and I hope that they will always know that even when there are hard days and discipline given. To every MOTHER out their that feels discouragement at times just remember you are wonderful and that discipline mixed with love creates happy, strong children. Being a mother at times is challenging but there is nothing better than the love they give. So to my sadness yesterday I say "Go Away" because Today I had a wonderful day with my children! Play dough (Twice), reading, laughing, tackling on the floor, laying on Savy's Blanket while she kept Kissing my face, and not once having to say No! It was a perfect day and I am so lucky to Be a Mother because I get a lifetime to learn and grow with my Dearest Sweethearts!
Sashy and Jonny I am sorry for being mean to you too, I love you and want the best for you too!(Just like my own children)
